You see or not is your matter

Today was a bad day. Totally a stupid thing. Its 2 years we together, I still dont understand why you dont like me joining those event? afraid of me know more friends? or you just no confidence with me ? You never understand the theory: the tight you pull the band, it is more easier to break. Today, i finally argue.. Actually I feel there is problem between us for a long time, you never know how I crying told others bout this. You did ever spend sometime talking or chatting with me, how is my day how is my event how i feel .. I just cant forget how you unwilling carry my things in Jusco, you throw it to me in front of friends. Sometimes, you saying that Im ugly, Im using ur money, I wad wad in front of them. Yes, they know bout this , but why you repeated in front them. Is it very fun you teasing me? dont you feel Im so not confidence , dont you feel you not respecting me ? Dont you think relationships is a 2 ways process? Im giving out, but you thought what I did is a responsible to you? Why you want say that to me? giving me money for me to forgive you? I know I always lack off money, I never ask from my parents unless it is so urgent. You paid for my meals and you said you want I pay back? Did you ever think what you said to me? The problem is I feel that Im the only person distributed in this relationship, Im dating with myself... not you